you don't rule your own life...

we have been sick lately ( i personally have not felt well since january!) with some sort of flu/snot/fever thing.  it has been cold too so we've laid low and have just enjoyed the slowness, not feeling particularly discouraged.  i read this yesterday though and it was such an encouragement to my heart that often wonders what i am supposed to be doing at any given moment or day. I am so grateful that Someone infinitely wiser than I is writing my story and enabling my feeble days with His grace:

"It's not wrong to think and think hard. It's not a sin to want to understand life. It's not bad to embark on a quest to know, but you better not be looking for peace of heart.  God created you with the ability to think and the desire for life to make sense. these traits were given to you so that you could come to know God and understand what he's communicated to you. But it is important to remember that rest is never to be found in trying to figure it all out, because you never will. There will always be mystery in your life. God will always surprise you with what he brings your way. You will always be confronted with the unplanned and the unexpected. All of this is because you don't rule your own life and you don't write your own story. And the One who does rule and write doesn't tell you everything about your life and his plan. No, he tells you the things you need to know to live as you were designed to live, and then he graces you with his presence and his power.

Because he controls the details of your life, he is always near; at any moment, you can reach out and touch him (see Acts 17:26-27). Rest is only ever found in trusting the One who has everything figured out for your good and his glory. Because he is wise, gracious, faithful, and powerful, he is worthy of your trust and is alone able to give your heart rest."

see psalm 139

from Paul Tripp's New Morning Mercies