"there's no crying in baseball!"

i'm trying to continually imagine tom hanks yelling this at me except substituting the word "baseball" for "residency" or "intern-year." though i do whine occasionally on here, i am resolving to keep it to a minimum. discontentment can easily rise up in any season of life because on this side of the jordan, frustrations and broken-ness abound. and broken-ness is not just around me, but also in me and so my tendency (and probably yours too) is to want what i do not have, to seek satisfaction and joy things and circumstances other than Christ. we knew residency was going to be hard and so we are not surprised that the first two weeks have been a bludgeoning of sorts. just try to imagine me speaking/writing with an optimistic overtone because i can't help but talk about it...affects most things right now. it is going to look like 80-90 hours of work for adam most weeks and pretty stressful work at that. it is going to look like me figuring out how to do a lot of things on my own with both kids...many events, exercise (can't do anything that i can't do with a jogging stroller), travel, repairs around the house (i think i might try to paint the kitchen after the kids go to bed some night this week), pretty much all the care of munchkin a and b day and many nights. i am not complaining. promise. but do pray for us, for our marriage, for our family. pray for grace to abound...we are both tired when we are finally together and it is easy at those times to be over-sensitive, critical, and tense. i struggle not to worry about becoming "disconnected" and often my cloud of worry can steal the little time we do have together. the gracious thing about residency is that it changes every month...even if the next month is still hard, it might be different hard. we were able to squeeze in a desperately needed date this weeekend (thanks dave and carol!) and a small birthday party for marit next weekend on adam's post-call day (hope he can stay awake for it:)). anyway, that's all, by the grace of God i resolve not to whine...ok? help keep me accountable?