longing for Resurrection

we found out yesterday that our sweet baby went to be with Jesus sometime in the last week.  i saw him or her on the ultrasound, but there was no familiar heartbeat flicker.  even babies in the womb are subject to the groans of creation.  Good Friday was a little more meaningful for me as i pondered the depths of broken world, death, and sin.  praise God that He did come and die and that we have an eternal hope because  in this world "you will have tribulation.  But take heart; I have overcome the world."  while we weep for this one, we know that it is only for the night and joy will come in the morning.  marit, graham, miles are such a sweet comfort as they keep us busy and laughing.  thank you to our sweet friends and family for all your offers to help, prayers, texts, emails, phone calls with scripture and encouraging words.  we feel so very loved.


"And our God is not a God to merely believe, but to experience, not to only believe in, but be held by. A God who not only breaks for you but breaks with you, a God to not only have creeds about, but to have communion with, a God who not only who dies for you, but who cries with you, the God who touches you and binds you and blesses you and heals you and re-members you because He let Himself be dismembered and He is the God we not only believe in— but we know. We know – know beyond a shadow of doubt, death or despair.
He has touched our tears. He has cupped our broken hearts with His scars. He has whispered to the howl, “I know, I know. And I’ve come to begin the making of all things new.” We believe. Because we know. He knows our grief. We know His goodness. And the truth is – we don’t need an explanation from God like we need an experience of God". -ann voskamp (who has been making me a cry a little more than usual) source


 Man of sorrows full of anguish
Sign my pardon crimson red
Grace and mercy freely lavished
From wounded side and thorn-pierced head
We will live in highest honor
Of the sacrifice You've made
Teach us, Lord to love each other
With the love you demonstrate
With the love you demonstrate

We await Your soon retuning
You will steal Your bride away
No more pain and no more hurting
On the advent of that day


may you know the depth of the Father's love for you this Easter as we reflect on the mess He delighted to come into to redeem His beloved.